I was in a bad spot when I came here to this phone sex job. I needed something, but I didn’t know what I needed if that makes any sense. The people I have met amaze me, a few stand out much more in my mind then others. Then men I meet here care about me in a way that I never thought possible. Honestly guys, I love you for it! After I came here and started to get into the swing of things I had a few life changing events happen, I have had a hard time dealing with everything lately.

When I got back from a trip yesterday I came home knowing I had a gift here for me, I had no clue what it was but I was totally pumped. When I came in my house I took a trip to the kitchen to feed my kittys then I sat on the floor with a bottle of whiskey and my mail, I do this often as 99% of my mail is bills. As I ripped my bills open I took shots and felt my eyes starting to water, it is obvious to me at this point that missing/halfassing work for weeks on end leads to nothing other then a diet of easy-mac and disconnected utility’s. After I was done with the hell of bills and binge drinking I opened my last piece of mail, a big box from Paul.

On April 9th I had a birthday, the day kinda sucked as the past weeks had sucked so I just couldn’t cheer up. When I opened this box my entire body started to tingle then I got dizzy, I was in total shock! Paul gave me a laptop for my birthday! It is amazing and its all light and fast and pretty and it has windows 7, it is SO nice and so much more then I got from anyone for my birthday ever. It was nothing I ever would have asked for, I am just not the type to ask for things but I think he knows that.

Now that I have my own big kid nice computer I am free to blog more and I will be around to take calls more. I am so excited, I need to go email Paul now that I got this crazy thing up and running to thank him. It is just nice to know that some of the people here like Paul, Mr.Pink Panties and boomer will always be so good to me and try to make me feel so special. It may shock people but I think this phone sex job is honestly just what I need. It keeps me busy and more then anything it keeps me happy. I go to “work” with a smile on my face, not everyone can say that.

I love the stories people share with me and I love the fact that I, even in the smallest ways fit into the lives and hearts of my callers and readers. I hope at the end of the day I make you all smile as much as you make me smile. It is hard to be young, but luckily you are all helping raise me and teach me things that I need to know about people and the world, with out you all I would be lost and deeply sad. Keep ready, calling and loving me and I will keep doing my thing for you.

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